And needing help getting here…
“Immaculate” by Laureen Marchand (24″ x 30″, oil/board, $2240 – from the exhibition Beholder)
I’m deep into the studio. So deep that sometimes I need reminding to come up for air. It’s good. Not that everything I do here is good, or even what I wanted it to be. But that the studio is the heart of my life these days.
Then I look back, only two months ago, and wonder: Is this the same person who experienced terror at the very idea of beginning a painting? Apparently it is. So what made the difference? Painting itself did. I followed the colour and the brush strokes, and the start of a new idea. Then I went back and did it again. And eventually, I came here.
I still haven’t fully worked out that idea. I don’t know how or where these works are going to sell. I never feel like I know what I’m doing. But mostly, being here is happy.
There are days, of course, when I need help. I’m tired, or my concentration fails. I distrust what I know. Then I turn to what others know. One of the places I turn to is a podcast called Savvy Painter. An artist named Antrese Wood interviews other artists about their practices and lives. The podcast is less than a year old and it grows richer all the time. Antrese is an excellent interviewer, attentive and attuned, and she gets fine things out of her guests. One of my favourite interviews so far is with Marc Trujillo. Generosity is the spirit of the hour.
I chose the image for this post because a good friend told me it was the one she liked best from my exhibition Beholder. She said it reminded her of the journey I had made to get from the past to now. Now is pretty good. And if you need some help getting from the past to now, try Antrese’s podcast. Then go back to your studio. Everything is waiting for you there.
And let me know how it works out!
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